To Bike or Not to Bike
It's taken me a long time to get motivated to be back on my bike again. I have a huge HUGE road block. I don't want to fall again, be in the hospital and not be able to walk. I feel grateful that I recovered and am able to walk again after such a bad hip fracture. I feel like I got a "Get out of Free Jail card".
So it scares me to think that I would voluntarily be putting myself in that position again. The amount of pain I went through in that hospital bed every time they moved me for 3 days, waiting for swelling to go down so they could operate. It was the worst thing I have ever experienced and I hope to never feel like that again. Every time I think about it I cringe and am terrified.
But, of course I just have to love biking. The true adventure being outside, going from one beautiful location to the next. Smelling the fresh air, and feeling my heart race as I slowly power up the hill. I miss bonding with my friends over a tough ride and the sense of accomplishment and pure exhaustion after finishing a tough ride.
I thought it might help to start this journal to help me get over my fears. I am hoping through this, I get over my mental block and am able to become the long distance cyclist I was 2 years ago. Also, in this process, I am hoping to hear from your experiences and maybe I can help you along they way too.
To your left. ;)
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